Tangled rope, held between two points

I’m tired of this

I don't want to talk with her. If I talk with, I'm reminded of how bad the situation is. I'm reminded of her delusions. I'm reminded of her struggles, her…
Compassion and expression

Compassion and expression

Something is changing the way I express my compassion, how I feel compassion. Something is different and it may look like I'm lacking compassion. One thing I have noticed in…
Staying in her life

Staying in her life

I meet her now for lunch. We share food and conversation. I can check in on how she's doing. She can see that nothing bad is happening to me. Her…
Looking out the window

Closing the year

Here we are, approaching the end of the year. It's been nearly three years since my mother has reappeared. I'm no longer in full flaming freak-out. I'm no longer in…